I really am old. I was talking to a friend the other day and the words “kids these days” actually passed my lips.
I have also apparently reached the age when fix-ups are inevitable. Heaven forbid a woman stay single beyond a certain age right? It started with one of my aunts and then a couple cousins. Now my mom and sister are getting in on it too. Truthfully I don’t mind it so terribly much. I know their hearts are in the right place. And I do want to find somebody to settle down with. It sucks being alone. But my heart still belongs to somebody else. Somebody I can’t call mine. I know I need to let go and move on. But it is so much easier said than done. There is also the fact that right now I have an awful lot on my plate that I need to figure out for myself. I am not sure there is room for a romantic relationship right now. Even so, I have agreed to meet someone my mom and sister are excited for me to meet. My sister is particularly excited and already basically has me married off to him. I tried to tell her not to get overly excited but it was no use. I have every intention of doing my best to go into the meeting with only friendship in mind. Should God have other plans so be it – but I refuse to let my guard down right now. Again, I am still completely in love with someone else anyway. I can’t change that. Believe me I have tried.
I have started work again on a knitted sweater I started about a year ago. I had made a huge mistake in reading the pattern and had to rip out a lot of work, and never picked it back up after that. I finally decided to give it another try. I immediately caught myself making the same mistake and had to rip it out yet again. I have re-started the piece for the third time, and am hoping this time I will not mess up. The pattern is not very clear, and is a little hard to follow on the part I am working on. But it is not too bad, once you figure out what you are supposed to do. I am hoping to finish the sweater before winter. I probably won’t, but that is the goal.
I need to clean out my closet this week. While looking for something to wear today I realized I have very little that I still like or that even still fits. It will be terribly empty when I am done, but there is no sense holding on to things if they don’t fit or I don’t like them anymore. My style has changed, and hopefully I will have a chance to get some new things soon that are more my speed now.
I am watching one of my dad’s favorite tv shows with him tonight: The Three Stooges. I had bought him a DVD set for some occasion a couple years ago. It might have been his birthday, or maybe Father’s Day. It is not a full set with every episode, I don’t think anyway, but there are quite a few. I will have to check online to find out if there are others he will need to complete the collection. I used to watch it with him when I was little. He also has a DVD set with all the John Wayne movies, which we also used to watch together when I was little. I want to find The Rockford Files on DVD for him too if I can. Yep you guessed it, that is another one I would watch with him when I was a kid.
It is nearing my bed time so I suppose I am off. Until next time, y’all.