I think it is safe to say my oldest niece is giving me the silent treatment. She’s removed me from her friend list on Facebook, and has completely ignored every text I have sent her for the past month, as well as the few phone calls I made. I know why she’s upset with me. It’s because I left Pittsburgh. It’s not like I didn’t tell her. Yeah, if you read that post, I neglected to tell most people in my life. But she was not part of that group. Granted when I told her it was quite a while before I actually left – but I did tell her I would be leaving, I just didn’t know when. I didn’t see her before I left. She has had no interest in visiting for a long time. It’s not like my being in a different zip code has made that much of a difference in our relationship, considering the way it’s been for the past year or two with her and her family. Who I am kidding? Her whole life things have been chaotic and so back-and-forth it could give a person motion sickness. But I am speaking in terms of more recent events. I know her, and when she wants to shut you out… she’s damn good at it. She will officially be a teenager soon. These are going to be some fun years.
Would it be really heartless and selfish of me to never go back to Pittsburgh?
I know I have to go back at some point. Most likely sooner than I’d truly prefer. I just really don’t want to. There’s only one person who I’d go back for. And he isn’t likely to give me what I need that would get me back to Yankee territory. I keep hoping he will. I want to believe he will. But words mean nothing without actions to back them up. So far, all I have from him are words… and that’s just not enough, anymore.