Melting Pot

2020 #1

Well here we are in the 20s. I’m a dork, I’m having way too much fun with this whole 20s thing. I have visions in my head of the 1920s every time I say it.

Work has at least become mostly tolerable at this point. I still very much want and need to find something more suited to me. But for the moment, at least, things are not quite as awful as they had been. Thankful for that much.

I’m not sure how much I will be blogging this year. Last year I almost finished out my goal of posting every week. I feel as if weekly is too much right now, so I may try for every other week instead. Not sure yet.

For the moment I am exhausted (some things never change, eh?) so I’m off to bed. Until next time, y’all.

xoxo

Melting Pot

2019 #43

I figured I should probably check in and let y’all know I’m still alive. I know I’ve not checked in at any of your blogs or replied to comments or anything in a long time. I apologize. I’ll try to be better about that going forward, but honestly can not make any promises. Life, you know?

I’m still job hunting with no success finding something more suited to me. I’ve gotten in trouble at work and am on thin ice so hopefully I can find something soon and quit before I wind up being fired. Cause yes that is where things stand right now. 🙄

I’ve decided to start a bullet journal. I can not say I fully “get” them but they’re popular right now and I admit to being curious about the trend so on a recent trip to hobby lobby I grabbed one and some new pens (because I don’t already have a thousand pens and markers lying around 😅) and figured I will give it a shot. I will say I will not be using mine as a planner, as I see many do based on the pinterest feeds and blogs/videos I have seen about them. Two reasons for this. One being I already have a planner. Two being I really never do anything but go to work anyway so I do not have much use for a planner. I use the one I have to keep track of birthdays, anniversaries, and my bills each month. That is plenty sufficient and I do not need another planner, so I’m not using my bullet journal as such. Instead I’m using it to track various things – mood, weather, migraines and such. I plan to have some list pages; lists of books I want to read, movies I want to watch etc. I’ll be filling the majority of the pages with random things that make me happy or inspire me: favorite quotes and proverbs, pretty drawings, fun/cute little doodles and things like that. I’ve got just a couple pages done so far.

I’d be curious to know about your own bullet journals, if this is a trend you have jumped into as well.

There is something else on my mind I would love to share… but the time is not right just yet. Perhaps soon.

Until next time.

xoxoxo

Melting Pot

2019 #42 Dear B

I miss you. I don’t know what happened; all I know is you promised me you would always come back and then one day you just left. We both knew going in that what we had was not forever. Even so I never expected you to walk out of my life so suddenly and completely. You didn’t even say goodbye. You just walked away and never looked back and I don’t understand why it had to end that way. The worst part though is you left me right when other aspects of my life started dragging me down; just when I really needed you to be there for me. I think of you a lot. Every time I hear or see a fire truck I think of you and hope if you’re on a call that you stay safe. When I see a truck that looks like yours I can’t help but wonder what you are up to. I wonder if you think of me the way I think of you… if there are little reminders in your everyday life that make you stop and think of me. Probably not. But I’d like to think if so that when you think of me and the times we shared that you smile. I’m not happy we didn’t have more time together. I’m not happy with how it ended. But while you were here… I’ll always think of those moments we shared and smile. I might be left with some questions but at least I do not have any regrets and I hope you do not regret it either. I’ll always wonder about you. I’ll always hope you’re doing well and that you’re happy. I may wonder a lot of things since you left… but at least I’ll never have to wonder what it would have been like, because I know. You’re a chance I will never regret taking. Youll always have a small piece of my heart. Given a little time you’ll probably forget all about me. But I will aways remember you, and I’ll always be grateful for what we shared.

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2019 #41

Well, so much for getting a post made every week this year. Work has been… I don’t want to talk about work. We will simply sum it up with I hate my job, it is making me miserable and I don’t know how much longer I can keep putting up with it. I’ve been looking for something else and applying to everything I can find that seems half reasonable but nobody is even calling me. 😕

Anyway. Honestly not much to talk about right now. My life is just work, errands, sleep, and repeat. Nothing fun or happy or interesting. There is plenty I could say about work but the things I have to say I really ought not say whilst still employed by the company. Some day, I’ll let it all out. Every ugly, stupid, frustrating thing… but for now… I need to just keep trying to survive one day at a time. Not sure I can sometimes.

Until next time. xoxo

Melting Pot

2019 #40

I’m going to try very hard to finish out the year with making the weekly posts. The end of the year is so close and thus I’m close to my goal to post once a week. I can’t say with any certainty how often I’ll blog in 2020. If life continues on as it has been lately, I’ll likely not blog much. I just never have the time to blog, or to do anything fun or interesting to blog about in the first place. My life has become a cycle of work, eat, cry, sleep, repeat. There just isn’t time for much else. When there is time… no energy or desire. I had the day off yesterday and desperately wanted to go to the beach, but was far too tired to make the trip so I stayed home instead. I have several projects that are in various stages of completion that I want to work on but when I have the time to work on them I’m just too tired.

I had been doing really good with going to the park to run on my days off for a while but things have been difficult the last couple weeks and I’ve not been in much too long. But as with everything else… just too tired.

The girls are doing well, as is Asher. I’m having a problem with Asher’s tank that I can not seem to sort out. I do not know what the problem is exactly or what needs done to fix it but it seems to be a problem with the filtration system. Hopefully I can figure it out soon.

Anyway. I’m tired. Imagine that. So I’m going to try to get some rest and relaxation in today. Have to work tomorrow and have no idea what I’ll be walking into what with two days off in a row and Saturdays tend to be miserable busy days so I’m not looking forward to it.

Until next time. xoxo

Melting Pot

2019 #39

Work sucks.

Seriously y’all. I made a mistake taking the full time position. I am making more money (barely) yet I seem to have less money than before. So the benefits are not worth opting into, cause they’d eat up too much of my paychecks and I need every blessed penny. My direct manager does not like me. Her reasoning is stupid but whatever, at least I know why. One of the store co managers has decided he does not like me for whatever reason. I can never get much of anything accomplished because while everyone else gets to work in back and chat and goof off, I’m up front by myself and having to stop what I am doing every other minute to wait on customers. I’m the only decorator. The department co manager can do cakes but as co manager cakes is the least important thing for her to do usually. However I was so behind that last week she was scheduled to work on cakes a lot more. So one of the store co managers and my direct manager were talking the other day about how she should be scheduled for cakes more often because she got so much done and did so awesome and isn’t she amazing blah blah blah. Like I was not there to hear it and possibly be affected by it. Hello y’all, I could get a ton done too if I got to hide in the back and not be bothered all day! I worked 4 hours in my old store recently to help them out and ya know what, I got more done in 4 hours than it took the department co a full shift to do. So there. 😠

I’m just completely unappreciated in the current location and there are all sorts of issues that have landed me in a very bad place mentally/emotionally. I’m job hunting again. Preferably for something that would let me spend my days with as few people as possible cause I am so, so over dealing with people. Every single day I have many moments when I’m tempted to go find the store manager to tell him I quit and I’m going home and not coming back. But I remember I have bills to pay and quitting before getting something else lined up would be very unwise. Hoping I find something more suited to me soon though because this job will be the death of me if I have to put up with it too much longer.

Anyway. That is basically all for right now. Just work sucks, I’m struggling and very very unhappy, certain things are not going as I had hoped they might… it is all just blah right now. So wth that I am off to possibly have a drink or two before bed. Actually have the day off tomorrow and want to enjoy it.

Until next time. xoxoxo

Art, Reviews

2019 # 38 – September Art + Product Review

As soon as I got the email from Chromatek that their new paint pens were available for purchase, I knew what I wanted to do with them. So I placed my Amazon order, and headed to my local Hobby Lobby for the river stones (garden stones, or whatever you may call them) I was also going to need. Then I had to wait for my Amazon package. Once that happened, I had to wait some more for time off work to actually sit down and try them out.

First we will discuss the pens, and to wrap up the post I’ll show you how I painted the river stones I got with them.

Overall, they are pretty standard paint pens. They’re not bad by any means. I just also did not think there was anything super special about them that sets them apart from other paint pens, with the exception of the price point. You get a set of 20 pens for about $15-$20 depending on if you have Amazon prime or not and how much you pay for shipping absent the free shipping for prime members. (I personally do not have Prime so I paid about $17 with shipping for my set.) The paint pens I uusually buy from Hobby Lobby are sold individually for anywhere from $2 to $6 a piece depending on what size pens they are and they only offer a couple sets with two, four, or five pens for $8-$13 approximately. As far as price goes, the Chromatek set is absolutely a bargain.

All the pens come individually sealed in plastic. They all have a standard medium, round nib. The color of the cap is, of course, the color of the paint.

The colors are vibrant, though not fully opaque with one pass. Depending on how you’re using them, of course, one pass may well be sufficient. On poster boards or mixed media paper etc for example, one pass would be fine. For my project with the river stones, for most of the colors I had to go over things two or three times to build up the opacity to where I wanted. Standard for paint pens, I experience this with all the pens I have from multiple brands.

I wish the caps could be placed on the end of the pen when not using it. But again this just seems to be standard for paint pens. You’ve got to find a place to set the cap while you use the pen. Since we are discussing the caps, this is one area where I feel like perhaps these pens could use some improvement. While shaking one of the pens, the cap and nib both flew off. I figured maybe it was just me being a little too aggressive in my shaking, so made sure to shake the pens more gently after that. I still had it happen a couple more times with other colors, though. I also think it would be nice if the caps snapped or clicked back on, so you know for sure when the cap is on securely.

The un-primed nibs have a yellow color to them. Most other paint pens, in fact every other paint pen I own, has a white nib. This is not much of an issue, unless you’re trying to see when the nib has been primed with a yellow paint color. Yellow on yellow can be difficult to see, ya know? (This is an issue with other pens when the paint is white. You can’t win 100% of the time really. lol)

With all things considered it is still a decent set. I wish they had a fine nib set for writing and doing finer details, as the river stones I painted all include quotes and writing on such small “canvases” with the medium nibs was not easy. Perhaps they will offer such a set in the future. I have fine tip pens from other brands I could have used for the writing, but the point was to test the Chromatek pens so I used them exclusively. As for this set specifically, if you are looking for a budget-friendly way to add a selection of colors to your collection this would be the way to go. If you don’t use paint pens often or only need a couple colors for one project, you are probably better off just getting individual colors from your local arts and crafts shop instead. If you are interested in checking out the Chromatek set, you can find it on Amazon with the following link (not an affiliate link): https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07RP6XBBK/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_awdb_t1_8duGDb6KSNQJG

As for my little creations to test these pens? Why, Firefly themed river stones of course. Because Firefly, y’all. They may not be perfect but they’re decent enough for a quick not-much-thought-or-effort afternoon project.

Until next time. xoxo

Discolsure: I was reimbursed for the purchase price of this product (not including shipping cost) in exchange for my honest review; no additional compensation monetary or otherwise was recieved for this review.

Melting Pot

2019 #37

Just realized I missed posting last week. Course, it depends on if you consider Sunday or Monday the start of the week. If you consider Monday the start of the week I have not missed it yet. So we are going with Monday is the start of the week and I’ve not missed a week yet. ðŸĪŠ

J, his girlfriend, and I went to the fair yesterday. It was his company’s family day event so for the employees of his company the food was free which was the whole reason we wanted to go. The place they always have cater makes delicious barbecue. And I’m a fan of the hush puppies they make as well.

We ended up being there and done with our meal at just the right time for the start of the tractor pull and though C had to leave for work J and I stayed for most of the tractor pull. We didn’t stay for the final class, but stayed till they had determined the winners for the couple trucks that were there to pull. I had not been to a tractor pull in more years than I can remember so it was a fun way to spend the afternoon.

Afterward I spent the night at J’s so we could have some hang out time. Didn’t quite go as planned, but was still an enjoyable and much needed relaxing evening.

I’ve got to tackle some cleaning up today and promised a coworker some cookies so I’ll be baking as well. I’m making white chocolate macadamia nut cookies. If I were smart I’d have made the dough yesterday as the cookies turn out better if the dough chills overnight but I was so focused on other things it just slipped my mind. I’ve got the butter softening now, and with how hot it is that should not take long. I’ll chill the dough for a couple hours at least. I do not plan to bake all of the cookies today anyway, just going to bake a few to take to work with me in the morning. The rest I’ll scoop out and freeze to bake another time.

Time to start tackling the much overdue cleaning, I suppose.

Until next time. xoxo

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2019 #36

Nothing new, really. Just work work work, and the two days a week I have off I’m either trying to catch up on houswork/sleep or running errands. There was a miscommunication/misunderstanding at work that has led to things being difficult. Long story, don’t want to get into specifics. Just, I did the right thing and I know that, even if others involved are still mentally in high school and not seeing the situation for what it actually was. They’re intentionally doing things now to be catty and make my life more difficult than it really needs to be… but whatever. They can’t cut my hours, at least, even if they wanted to. I’m the only cake decorator so they need me there as much as possible.

I’ve got some stuff brewing in my mind… not sure what if anything will ever come of any of it. Just ideas and hints of ideas forming.

Gotta run – have some laundry to take care of and it is already almost bed time for me. Hope you’re all doing well.

Until next time. xoxoxo